fake fake fake
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i don’t even understand. like, my mom has to have some idea that i like girls, and she acts like she’s so supportive being like “wow you hang out with a lot of gay friends eh?” and “sooo jess about that _______ girl, she’s cute eh?” and like it kind of leads me to think that she’d be ok with it.
but then i just went and told her that i’m going to montreal pride as a volunteer, instead of going to a wedding of one of my cousins, who i don’t even know.
and she immediately flips to be like “ok well either get out of our house or start paying rent and blah blah i don’t support volunteering for that blah blah”
it feels like i’ve just gotten out of another stupid relationship of being led on by someone, but this time i was led on by my mom, and i was led to the idea that she wasn’t a complete fucking homophobe.
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my life is like one big perma-happy-high
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I am so blessed
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